Dormant (for now)

Right now my blog is dormant, but you can find me most days here, here, or here, or on Caltrain between San José and San Francisco. I’m working on a few large writing, personal and professional projects and should have more thinkspace after November 8th. See you around.

Running for the train


I decided to drive to the train station rather than bike today. I like my daily 20 minutes of cardio, but I was running a bit late. My phone said it would take 10 minutes. I had 20.

I drove, letting one pop song play before the station started listing ways women could fight off rapists with their shoes. The announcer started off making fun of women for wearing high heels, like it was a moral fault to like pretty things or women who decided what “professional” means. 13 minutes in–I got a little lost–and I get to the parking lot, turning past dozens of empty spots. I’m within sight of Diridon station’s red brick facade. A man in an orange safety vest walks up, tells me he can’t sell anymore spots because he has to save them for a corporate event. He takes my $5. I hope he isn’t an entrepreneur who’s realized commuters with 7 minutes until the last Baby Bullet to San Francisco will give any orange vest $5. He tells me to drive a quarter mile away, park behind the Shark Tank. He gives me a yellow ticket on thick card stock.

Two lefts and a right he tells me. I thank him. I make my first left out of the driveway–another commuter nearly t-bones me, rushing to park for her train. I get a green. I make my second left. Working my way into the right-ish-bike-ish lane, I make it to the Shark Tank lot. I show my ticket to the young woman at the gate. She accepts it and does not tell me I was hoodwinked by a man with an orange vest and a Kinkos card. I park. 5 minutes.

I can no longer see the red brick of the station. I start sprinting as soon as I close my car door. My keys fly out of my bag, in front of another car rolling into the parking lot. I fly after them, scooping them up and shoving them deep in my bag as I gallop down the stairs. I get my Clipper card in my hand by touch as I make the turn onto the sidewalk. It’s thicker than my ID, without the bumps of my debit card.

My bag swings in front of my body and I hit a red light, a long one with no crosswalk. I watch a man with shoulder-length dreads make eye contact with the 6 lanes of stopped traffic and sprint across. I do the same, bag gripped to my chest. I can see the red brick station. There’s no clocks to tell me how much of my 5 minutes I have left.

I run, over the bus-pedestrian no-woman’s land of the ground transit hub. My legs are slowing down; I’m not sure if I am breathing. I focus on slapping my feet on the ground as it turns from asphalt to concrete to tile. I look up; I’m inside the station.

I see my train through the wavering windowpanes of the station. I have my Clipper Card in my hand. I shove it at the blue watch post–not accepted. I shove it again, glancing at my train. I taste pennies. The watch post tweets at me to tell me it’s taken my tender.

I run down the long slope under the tracks; a woman starts to run with me, high heels clattering on the sliding tile floor. A man in sneakers jogs beside me. People start to run with us. We’re in a pack, galloping along the flat before the that low slope back up to the daylight and the waiting train. Above our heads we hear the jingle-jangle of horns for a train departing–or arriving. Same sound.

We pick up speed, cornering together. I can’t hear our train over my heart’s blood. I see our train. Not moving. Doors open. Waiting.

We split; I commit to the nearest door. Others leap for those farther down, more likely to have open seats. I spent my luck for today and jump the steps to get inside. No seats on the bottom level. Doesn’t matter. I can stand. My phone says it’s one minute to departure. I climb the train’s internal steps on aching shaking legs to find an empty row at the very top. I sling my bag over my shoulder to sit. My chest is heaving and my pulse is in my instep, my ankles, my temples and my throat. The doors jingle-jangle and close. I breathe.


Inspirational Quote:

“Writing is the only thing that when I do it, I don’t feel I should be doing something else.” – Gloria Steinem

Evidence using Creative Commons for our cards was the perfect choice

This is a cross-post from the Notable Women in Computing Kickstarter because I am so excited about this.

I was looking through the Twitter results for Notable Women in Computing project and found this tweet:

Look closely–it’s a modded version of the deck. So cool! I checked my inbox and Rachel Cheng of CppCon emailed me to let me know they had 700 attendees who got a deck each in their swag bags. One of the attendees asked for the files so he can distribute them in schools. My heart overfills with happiness to see these incredible women gaining the credit they deserve in the world.

This is exactly why we used Creative Commons for this project and made all of the source files for our work free. Alone, we’re 3 women with other jobs and work to do. (Did I mention this summer I started working as a scheduler for California Attorney General Kamala Harris? I did. She’s great.)

We’re all busy. But as members of the community of technical women, we are a multiplying force. We can take the history and future of women in computing further and farther together than any of us could alone. I am so grateful to be a part of this project.

Inspirational Quote:

“Have you ever experienced a moment, knowing full well that words cannot do it justice?” – Richard Sirken

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